Lokabrenna 2015

I was trying to think of what to do today, but I’m afraid I’m not much of a planner; usually our interactions are all very impromptu. I was having trouble coming up with anything different than what we usually do, and while I would be happy to just chat and listen to some music together, I wanted to do something different today.

What finally came to mind was: Let’s go to the dollar store, buy some craft supplies, and do something silly and fun! The result? I got some felt, cut out some funny mustaches and stuck them on with tape. Alas the tape was not sticky enough to make it stay, but it was fun.

At other times we’re more serious, it depends on what we’re doing. But more often than not, it’s pretty light hearted; find something we’ll both enjoy and feel good. Sometimes that’s music, often it’s just talking to him about whatever’s on my mind, and sometimes it’s being silly because it’s fun. I guess I just want to make him smile. He has made me smile many times. He came into my life at a time when I really needed that. Learning again to find happiness in little things, has made such a difference.

Dear Loki, you make my days brighter. I am glad to have you in my life.

Something resembling a plan

Wep Ronpet is a week away for me. I have decided that I’m not going to celebrate the intercalary days this year. I don’t really get anything out of it, and I feel like it’s unnecessary for me personally, so I’m just going to skip that this year. I am still definitely doing something for Wep Ronpet, though!

I also want to do something for Lokabrenna, which would technically fall on the same day, but I want to have it on a different day so I can devote a whole day to both holidays. Well, probably not a whole day; we’ll see how that goes.

Since the date would fall in the middle of the week for me, I’m moving my holidays to the weekend. I couldn’t decide if I should do it the weekend prior or one after, so I’ll do one of each! August 9 for one, and August 15 for the other. I haven’t decided which is which, yet.

The 9th will be the end of this week, so I need to scrape together at least a general idea of what I want to do. I’m also behind with school work, so I’ll be busy with that too. I was considering doing August 15 and 16, to give myself more time, but nah, I like this setup. I’ll just…I have no idea. I will do SOMETHING, and it will be great!

I have been embracing the chaos for the past few months, and that’s been going really well for me. I don’t need to have everything planned out, I just need to have a general idea of what I want, and go for it. I’ll figure out the details along the way. 🙂

Sirius rising

I am such a nerd. I spent an entire day looking up coordinates for various cities and calculating the heliacal rising of Sirius to see if there’s a pattern. There is. Here’s what I learned:

The heliacal rising of Sirius varies by latitude (how far north or south you are). Longitude doesn’t affect the results. You still need to enter your longitude when doing the calculation, but if two cities are on the same latitude, they will get the same date regardless of their longitude. I thought elevation was supposed to be a factor, but it didn’t make any difference for any of the numbers I checked.

Anyhow, the long and short of it is that the date depends on latitude. For most of North America, we’re looking at mid-July to mid-August.

If you are farther north, it will be later in the year. If you’re up in someplace like Alaska, it could be as late as the beginning of September.

If you are farther south, it will be earlier in the year. It could be as early as the beginning of June. So it’s a pretty big range.

If you want to calculate the heliacal rising of Sirius / Lokabrenna / Wep Ronpet for yourself, I made a walkthrough here.

Dates may vary a bit from year to year, but it will generally be very close to the same date. (I got the exact same date 3 years in a row.) So if you just want a close estimate, here’s a cheat sheet to look up the most likely date based on your latitude.

45°S = 1st of June
42°S = 4th
40°S = 7th
37°S = 9th
35°S = 12th
33°S = 13th
31°S = 15th
29°S = 17th
26°S = 20th
23°S = 22nd
20°S = 24th
18°S = 26th
15°S = 28th
12°S = 30th

9°S = 3rd of July
7°S = 4th
5°S = 5th
2°S = 8th
1°N = 10th
3°N = 11th
6°N = 13th
9°N = 15th
12°N = 18th
15°N = 20th
17°N = 21st
20°N = 23rd
22°N = 25th
25°N = 27th
28°N = 30th
30°N = 31st

31°N = 2nd of August
34°N = 4th
37°N = 6th
39°N = 8th
41°N = 10th
43°N = 12th
46°N = 15th
49°N = 18th
51°N = 20th
54°N = 24th
58°N = 29th
61°N = 3rd of September

As I said, I got the same date 3 years in a row. I have not looked farther into the future. If the dates start to shift in future years, I will update this page, but I expect it to be fairly accurate for quite a while.

Personally, I don’t feel the need to celebrate holidays on the exact day, so having a close estimate would be good enough for me, but I’ll still do the calculations, because it’s fun!

I think Sekhmet wants more

I think I’m gonna have to step up my game.

I am very casual in my interactions with my gods, and they have always seemed happy with that. One of main reasons that I like these gods is because they’re so laid back.

But now Sekhmet is here, and I feel like she wants more formality in my interactions with her. First off, I tried to put down a flowery altar cloth, and got a big NOPE. I ended up using a plain cream colored altar cloth; that felt right. Later I switched it out with a plain green one, and that was also good. So I guess colors are fine as long as it’s something classy.

My other gods never complained about their colorful altar cloths. They’re festive!

Apparently that sort of thing is not Sekhmet’s style, or at least not what she wants from me. That’s okay, I can do things differently, and would be happy to, I’m just not sure how.

So I’m feeling a little bit lost now, because I honestly don’t know HOW to do formal. A cloth is easy to change, but being more formal in my actions? I don’t even know where to start with that. I think offerings are fine the way they are, but there are other things I need to work on. I’m trying to think of a form of address that’s more classy than “Hey, how are ya doing?” but not so stuffy or archaic that it would sound stupid coming out of my mouth.

I never expected this to come up, since all of the gods I’ve honored up until now have been ones who didn’t care about formalities. I’m in unfamiliar territory without a map…

I guess it’s time for some research and brainstorming.

ETA: The feeling I’ve been getting from her is not disapproving, nothing like that. What it is…it’s like she’s standing there looking at me like “Is that the best you can do?” Pushing for more without being unkind. There’s nothing wrong with how I do things, but there’s a definite push to take it up a notch.

Reblog: Loki and Women

Weaving the Net

This post is based on and inspired by Sati’s wonderful post about Seth and Women (in German).

Loki, the “Unmanly” Man

If you worship Loki — especially if you’re female while doing so — you’ll quickly be finding yourself battling prejudice based on the clichéd immature, hormone-driven teenager; or alternatively, the clichéd oversexed while underfucked aging single woman. According to cliché, you only have the hots for a particular part of Loki’s — the part that you usually find roughly in the middle of the male body, to be precise. If you stop to think about it, however, this is rather odd: in fact as far as we know from extant sources, Loki and His sexuality are not as clear-cut for Him to easily lend themselves interpretation as a sex symbol.

Imagine a time and culture where ergi — that is, the accusation of unmanliness and cowardice, that is always…

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Update

I wanted to post an update but was too tired to write it up last night.

First of all, I stopped worrying about doing more for Loki, so that’s good. I got several helpful suggestions, and I’m going to try some things, but I don’t feel like I have to do stuff.

What I really want is to have more of a connection. When I have things to talk about, that’s probably the biggest thing that helps me build connections. But I haven’t had much to talk about lately, so that’s been an issue. I’m going to try writing and see if that works better.

I liked physical offerings because that gave me something to do even if I had nothing to talk about. The music suggestion was especially helpful as an alternative or additional thing I can do.

So yesterday, we listened to some music, and that was fun. I was just sitting on my bed with the laptop, but it kind of felt like a party. I was also suddenly feeling playful, and there was lots of laughter. I think I may have been picking up on his mood.

Thanks for the playlist, Corannhena. I liked most of the songs, and I was commenting on things as they came up, so that also gave me something to talk about. It was mostly just things like, “I like this one. Don’t like this one. Oooh, this one’s nice. I really like this one!” Then there was one that was like, wtf is that, and I turned towards Loki’s shrine and said “Okay, that’s just weird,” and laughed. Dude has some weird tastes 😛 I’m happy that most of it was stuff that I like too.

Today I didn’t do much. I was tired and took a nap that lasted ~6 hours~ :/  I think things are good, though.

Flail

I’ve been noticing that every Lokean I know is doing something for Loki on a regular basis. Even if it’s just small offerings or writing about him. That made me panic, because what if he wants me to do stuff, and I can’t? Was this whole thing a big mistake? I mean, I like him a lot, but he seems to want his people to do stuff, and I don’t know if I can do anything.

I’m…not well, physically, so even cooking or going to the store is very hard for me. I can’t even write poetry worth a damn. All I can do is occasionally offer food, if I’m feeling up to it. My Kemetic deities seem to be fine with that. Maybe Loki is okay with it too, idk, but it does look like he likes people to be actively doing something. And I have no problem with the idea of doing stuff, I’m just worried that, what if he wants a thing I can’t do? I’m probably worrying over nothing, but now that I’ve started thinking about it, I can’t stop.

ETA: I’ve been thinking of getting some divination done, because with not having a god radio, I don’t even know if he’s even interested in me. So I was thinking of the possible answers; A, What I’m doing is enough. Cool. B, I should do more. This could be problematic; if he asks for something I can’t do, what then? I know technically you can say no, but I also know deities don’t give up so easily. Or C, Not interested at this time.

And the thought of C made me realise that I don’t want that to be the answer, even though it would stop B from being a worry. I don’t want Loki to not be in my life. I don’t even understand why I feel that way. Well, emotions are often irrational, that’s not news. I still don’t know where that leaves me.